The Bella Twins have released a new memoir titled Incomparable, and in that, Nikki finally sheds some light on what went wrong with her relationship with John Cena. At WrestleMania 34, the leader of the Cenation proposed to Nikki, but their marriage was called off just days before it was set to take place.
Speculation ran rampant at the time that it was all just a publicity stunt, but it quickly became clear that wasn't the case. Now, both John and Nikki have moved on, and we finally know what brought their relationship to an end.
"Because I was terrified of losing my love, I stuffed my desire for marriage and kids as deep as I could," she admits. "He had made it clear that they weren’t on the menu for him. That’s tough, though, because if you’re inclined that way, then the more you grow to love someone, the more you want it all. I stopped giving voice to those needs, though. I was worried my ex would call it off and let me go. And while I wanted those things very badly—I just wanted him more."
"The fallout was terrible, particularly the speculation within the news media and on social media that it was all for ratings," she added in regards to what happened next. "The thing about reality TV is that you don’t get to pick and choose what you show—and the pressure from filming inherently creates drama. It brings things to a head by applying a heavy load to the sensitive parts of your life. Having our relationship fall apart on national TV was excruciating. I had to relive it all again, while also having my heart broken from missing my ex."
The way things ended was definitely a shame, but Cena has a new love interest, and Nikki is both engaged and expecting her first child. Everything happens for a reason, and in their case, it's clear that it just wasn't meant to be.